For right now, this needs to stop.

As far as my relapse conundrum, I could not continue treatment, after all. I just.. stopped. I am still so emotionally drained, and my body is at wits’ end. I’ve been off antibiotics for a month, now, and I’m flaring at the moment because of the usual beginning-of-the-month bug-flare that happens… Only this time I am not protected, so it’s scary to think of what they’re doing in there! How can one feel this close to having the flu and not actually have influenza?

On Samhain I ultimately decided to take another two weeks off and just restore my body as much as I can, with only the necessary things and as few medications as possible. I don’t think I have any yeast problems, but I’m going to take a few doses of candidiasis treatment, just in case. And then I’ll talk to my LLMD and see where we can go from here.

I can’t thank you all enough for the responses to my last post. At any given moment, I am ready to reach out for help, or curl into a ball and never speak again. It’s a constant back and forth. I want to say, “the disease is what makes me want to retreat,” but it’s not even that. It’s my response to it. It’s knowing that I do have some control here, I do have a choice, and I’m terrified of making the wrong decision. Continue this grueling treatment regimen and make myself worse, an inevitable decline, or forego treatment completely and still begin an inevitable decline. But I’ll tell you what.

My intuition says to stop.

And I always, always listen to it. It says I need this break. It says I could use it to heal my body as much as I can, and in two weeks I may know clearly again what next step to take. I can’t believe in God as much as I do, and ask Him to guide me, and then not follow what I feel is the right course of action, even though I can’t explain it.

That became even more apparent today when I really wanted to take my antibiotics again, because the thought that these infections are inside me running amuck and I have nothing to stop them, is very frightening. It was then that I noticed how strong my conviction was to not resume my treatment…

Anyone think I’m crazy, yet?

I can’t help but notice that the idea of treatment helping me, which has always been my motivator in the past, has not even crossed my mind. It’s as if somewhere inside I know that to continue with it at this point in time would do me harm. Logically speaking, I think that not treating is also pretty bad, but somehow, not as bad as taking these medications; at least not right now.

So that’s where I’m at.

 

I also had a visit with my new neurologist, and it wasn’t as productive as I thought it’d be. Part of that is my body’s fault because I only got to ask him half of what I wanted–I was so bad-off that morning I almost passed out in their waiting room.

In response to my relapse he said, “There will be good weeks and bad weeks, good months and bad months.” And apparently when you tell someone you have myalgic encephalomyelitis they don’t think twice about you having severe daily headaches and eye pain (i.e., I guess you do have headaches). But he’s a good doctor who at least didn’t outright call me a hypochondriac. I’ve noticed with having this lesion on my brain, people tend not to think you’re “just exaggerating” quite as much. He said it was post-infectious demyelination, but it wasn’t changing in size so he didn’t feel I needed a repeat MRI for right now. My various damaged nerves are healing up, so that’s a good thing! So much so, that he didn’t  think I ever had facial palsy… Luckily that’s in my notes from my last neurologist. :\

He also thinks all my movement disorder problems are Tourette’s… Which is wildly inaccurate, but because he thinks Tourette’s Syndrome is just a “group” of movement disorders rather than its own thing which should be diagnosed after the other movement disorders have been ruled out, it would make sense for him to say that. I can always see that movement disorder specialist should things progress even further, so. (I know it’s not Tourette’s because my TS does act up when I get new infections, however, it acts up completely differently than the problems I’m currently having.)

He said do NOT take any triptans for my migraines (the main reason I went to see him, actually), and gave me Cambia powder to try for my next attack. Which my insurance won’t cover, of course, so I’ll rely on samples like the other three medications I can’t afford. He diagnosed me with complicated migraine and said I really should be on a preventative medication with this type of diagnosis, but I mentioned that not ALL my migraines do the whole “Hey I Look Like I’m Having A Stroke” thing. I’ve had them fifteen years, so it makes sense they’d eventually progress, but I only get “those” maybe once a month or every two months…

Which is probably not very good, but good lord I just can’t handle another medication right now, especially when my options for preventative medications are very limited! I think he actually ran out of ideas for me since Topamax is practically my only choice and it lowers my intracranial pressure. :\ But at least Migraine is a well-studied disease and, should I live long enough, they will probably come out with something new, soon.

 

The best news I have is: (1) I got to visit a friend (actually, I returned to the scene of the crime of where I caught Lyme disease), and I recovered pretty easily from it with all the careful planning and tailored resting schedules. And (2) I invested in a tilting overbed table. I don’t think I have words to describe how useful it is. How have I never thought of this before? Person who is in bed most of the time, desks that go over the bed… Regardless, this thing is amazing. What I really love is the little mini-desk on the side that always stays flat so you can put stuff on it!

 

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This is an entirely new way of formatting, but…

…it’s the only way for me to get this entry published. I’m basically forcing myself to update. I won’t be making a habit of this, but for now… Purple things about life, black things about health updates (read as: Purple for things that are semi-interesting, black for things that I need to write down lest I forget). Also, some random quotes by me, because, why not.

  • June 5th: I started reading American Gods. (So far I’ve made it to chapter four, I think.)
  • June 6th: I got my bloodwork back, showing that my liver enzymes are perfectly normal, back in their 20s and 30s, thanks to the Liver Chi my LLMD put me on! I’m enthralled. If anyone is having trouble with their liver enzymes, and milk thistle isn’t enough, try this stuff! I’ve been on 2 capsules 2-3 times a day, as per doctors orders.

~*~ Life is like Music. If you combine a few key, simple
elements in the right way, you get beauty.
~*~

  • June 8th: Spent the day listening to music and watching the rain. If you want to know what it sounded like (AND YOU DO), open and play this and this at the same time. Also, decided that one day I will own a professional camera.
  • June 9th: Shaking for most of the day with very visible tremors.

~*~ Acceptance doesn’t mean we sit back, stop fighting, and
give up hope. It means we acknowledge truthfully
where we are and how we feel about it.
~*~

  • June 10th-11th: Muscle fatigue (via M.E.) due to a lot of arm usage in talking/typing to a bunch of amazing people. (It was worth it. ♥) Also very, very sore, with a “I feel like I’ve been run over” type of pain, reminiscent of my fibromyalgia days, but not as severe. I had ordered some very soft clothes that finally arrived, which really helps the burst of peripheral neuropathy I’ve gotten lately. I’m assuming my nerves are trying to heal from whenever these infections had spread to my arms several months back. Fioricet is a HUGE help for neuropathic pain!
  • June 11th: I realized that, over the past.. well, a long time, I can’t remember anymore, but I’ve developed oromandibular dystonia that’s mostly triggered by eating. I hope it is worsening now because of herxing, like my other forms of dystonia did when I began treating bartonella last year, and not because it’s something that’s going to hang around. I have quirks, yes, but it is mainly triggered by me trying to eat and chew, etc. Perhaps there is some kind of sensory trick I can learn to tame it? I have some information about when it may have started thanks to my wonderful tagging system, but I’ll have to sort through that, later.
  • June 12th: My niece made me an acronym poem, something awesome about me for each letter, and left it out for a surprise. Aha. I love being the aunt. ♥ Also, I needed my glasses this day. Most days I am fine and don’t need them indoors, but it was a “blurry-can’t-see-the-tv” day. Does anyone else get that? You just wake up with poor eyesight?
  • June 13th: I felt great, it being a Wednesday and the furthest day from my Thurs-Sun Flagyl pulse. And for the record “great” means being able to breathe when I stand up, and able to walk around. I did some minor cleaning, and even did some laundry!

Yesterday I had my cardiologist appointment. He agrees that the palpitations are probably from the Liver Chi, said to be careful with the ibuprofen since it is also processed by the liver, and to continue getting regular labwork to make sure things stay stable. If anything continues to flare, I should go see him again, but as of now I am good for another five months and I don’t need to repeat any heart function tests until next year. :) He’s sending me to get a urinalysis because I have nocturia that has been worse the past several months. During the day I think I urinate a normal amount, but during the night it gets worse, and we’re not sure why. I also told him about this cough that’s gotten worse the past several weeks, but I forgot what he said! Also, I had the beginnings/continuation of further eye problems, which I want to talk about, more.

My eyes continue to be a bother for me. As I mentioned previously, I’ve been staying in the dark since beginning treatment because it is too painful to be in normal light. Some random days I am okay (like the day it rained, and I was able ot have the window open!) but for the most part, it is me in my dark room with my dim lamp.

As for this recent “episode,” I assume it started on the 12th when I woke up and needed my glasses. Then yesterday, as I was lying on the exam table waiting for the doctor, every time I opened my eyes, the walls were a different colour. Yesteday night, the photophobia started. (I need to make a photophobia tag…) The light from my cellphone, on its lowest setting, was excrutiating. Today it was just as bad.

I have my one window covered completely with layered curtains, and thumbtacks around the edges to keep them completely shut–the only light that enters my room is through the top of them, and I even have a towel over that. Just the few flecks of light that managed to escape through the top of the towel this morning were enough to make me roll back under the blankets in pain. I eventually got up and threw two more towels on it. After several hours in the dark, some ibuprofen, and some coffee, I am much better, hence the typing. According to my tags I’ve had this exact set of symptoms in April of last year (cough included!), and it was when I was (1) on Zithro (read as: Biaxin’s cousin) and (2) having one of my “these are strange symptoms what is going on” phases. So I’m going to assume this is Lyme or Mycoplasma, and just be glad I am on antibiotics to kill both of these beasts. :\ At my next LLMD appointment I want to start A-MYCO from Byron White formulas, too.

…And there we have it!

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On livers and Lyme and dystonia and…another antibiotic break.

On Thursday, the 5th of April, I upped the minocycline to 200mg a day. For the next few days I only noticed a greater need for sleep. Since starting the minocycline in general, I had a greater need for lortab/vicodin (at least once a day) to deal with the head and neck pain (read as: severe), so that also got worse temporarily before tapering off into less-severe pain.

Mostly because of this, my sinuses were really bothering me (hydrocodone causes a release of histamine, and when you stop it, then you can get a rebound release of it), so I had to take Nasonex for several days–it helped so much, and by days Three and Four of being on it, I was outside taking pictures of flowers!! I figure it might have been helping subdue some of the herxing because of its immunosuppressive tendencies. After day Four I was able to stop that, too, since my sinuses had returned to normal.

Then on the 9th I got a fax from my doctor saying my liver enzymes were very elevated. This, after them being perfectly normal two weeks earlier, and me still taking milk thistle three times a day!! I was upset, but I had to stop all antibiotics again.

I don’t know if it was from not taking my antibiotics, beginning that morning when I got the fax, or rebound inflammation from stopping the Nasonex, but I felt absolutely horrid starting that day, and did every day after/have every day since. We’re talking complete flu-feeling and just.. awful. It was the metaphorical equivalent of hitting a bear over the head once, and then standing there staring at it. Lyme is a very, very angry bear. To further my physical suffering, a few days later my Lyme flare up began! D:

And then an old Lyme-related friend came to visit me: Dystonia.

(I tried to kick it out–you must mean the house down the street, no rainbows at night, here!–but, that didn’t work.)

And not just dystonia, but that special brand of dystonia with parkinsonism thrown in there that makes me unable to walk, that makes everything on my left side either fail and freeze, or flail and dance. (Why does Lyme like the left side so much? No one can figure it out, not even the doctors.) It began on the 14th, when I got out of bed, took two steps, and my left leg decided it wanted nothing to do with this “walking” business. Luckily, there are wheelchairs. I still had a lot of movement problems even wheeling about the house, but standing up makes it so much worse in general, even if I’m not trying to walk. It got worse on the 15th and 16th…

I wish I could adequately describe what this type of movement disorder is like. A dear friend of mine in Pennsylvania has the exact same problems I do (also hypertonia, also brain lesions) and despite telling her this, she really didn’t “get” that we were having the same issues or that I really did understand what she meant when she explained them! Then one day I guess I explained it pretty well, and she understood, and didn’t feel so alone. I wish all of us Lymies could record ourselves having these problems and put them on YouTube to give each other some comfort that we’re not alone…but I don’t know how many would go through with it. I know I don’t want people to see me when I’m having these problems; like most, I’d rather just wait it out! :\

Anyway. So a typical “episode” of this happening might start with me attempting to walk. A varying amount of time passes before I slow dramatically and then my left leg will start to drag. If I stand in one place it often curls inward. If I try to walk it is essentially frozen, or moves so little that I might end up walking on the tips of my toes to compensate. Something around my hip/thigh happens and my leg jerks upward, causing me to simultaneously fall forward, often twisting my neck to one side at the same time “for some reason.” I don’t always have to be walking for this to occur. I know low oxygen (or at least low oxygen ratio) makes this worse, because supplemental oxygen always helped in the past.

“A major principle of body movement is that all muscles have an opposing muscle. Movement is possible not just because one muscle becomes more active, but because the opposing muscle relaxes. …Rigidity comes about when, in response to signals from the brain, the delicate balance of opposing muscles is disturbed. The muscles remain constantly tensed and contracted so that the person aches or feels stiff or weak.”

Other times it involves my face and neck–like an episode of Bell’s Palsy that isn’t so much the nerves (I don’t think, at least) as it is the muscles contracting, and causing issues like facial grimacing, an inability to open my left eye all the way (lots of times I cannot look upwards, which is truly disturbing–I don’t think this is dystonia but I wanted to mention it anyway), and my tongue might tremor, etc.

This time, much to my dismay, my arms were involved, interferring with my typing. :( It wasn’t the M.E., and it wasn’t the neuropathy that’s started to invade my arms causing the weakness, but something different. (It’s probably impossible for me to put the difference into words, but I know what that feels like.) They were doing the same thing my legs did–gradually getting slower and slower and it was as if the nerves were failing to send adequate signals, where in my head I was giving them the action I wanted them to perform but everything was going very..very…..slow…… :| (But not the paralysis and takes-five-days-to-recover like the M.E. muscle failure; this is far more neurological.)

And then the 17th happened. Or rather, the night of the 16th when I tried to sleep. I spent all night waking up every hour going “omg I’m going to vomit” and “omg why is everything moving” and then when I woke up once at 7am, the back of my head was killing me (figure of speech, of course). And thus began the cycle of the next five days. But at least after about the 18th, the dystonia and parkinsonism got better and I could walk again. Oh, the things I had happen every morning… One morning was like I described above, for another it was all I could do just to roll onto my back and take medicine, another was gastrointestinal nerve problems that immobilized me in pain, then to add insult to injury, I woke up dehydrated, because I usually do during Lyme flares; it has been an incredibly difficult couple of weeks! What got me through it was knowing that it would pass.

And it did.

The 22nd I felt good enough to take a ride to the city. Well, with the help of adequate medication for pain and inflammation. Right now I’m waiting for a supplement to arrive (tomorrow), so I can resume antibiotics.

I can’t thank God enough for such an absolutely amazing doctor to get me through all of this. Especially after so many years of people who didn’t know what they were doing, no idea how to help me, or just passing me around from doctor to doctor. (From primary to cardiologoist to neurologist to immunologist to infectious disease specialist to another cardiologist to another neurologist to a movement disorder specialist to…) I feel safe in God’s hands and my LLMD’s experience to get me better. He called and told me this herb collection to order for my liver, called Liver Chi. He says he has patients with Lyme-induced MS who are on triple IV antibiotics, their liver enzymes inevitably going high, but who can’t stop treatment for fear of their disease progressing. He thinks I am in that group with the rate that my symptoms progress the moment I stop antibiotics. And if this supplement (a mix of chinese herbs) has been able to bring theirs back down to normal, on all of those antibiotics, I’m sure it can help me get back in treatment! So he said to take a two-week break (which I have), and.. essentially, don’t wait, get the herbs, and resume treatment whenever I got them. And of course keep checking my enzymes.

 

I’ve been doing a lot of art lately to help me cope, so here are a few pieces. Three photos, three paintings. You can click on “Permalink” when they open in the gallery, to read more about any piece you want.

Things I want to add into this post but have no idea how:

  • Ibuprofen always helps. Always.
  • My PCP says I should tell my cardiologist about the fact that I feel like I’m going to pass out when I take a deep breath–I actually had to lie on the examining table this time, which is new. My first guess is my usual lack of my heart rate variability and the fact that it’s supposed to vary when you inhale deeply, but mine often doesn’t… But that’s autonomic neuropathy for you.

a rainbow at night

Lyme time again? And rambles about movement disorders.

It’s been a while since I’ve had the Beginning of the Month Lyme Flare, but I suspect due to stopping the Azithromycin, it’s making a small comeback. No worries, though–I doubt it’ll have time to do much damage before I start Tindamax next month… It’s December now! Yay!

I love the holiday season. Everyone is so giving, and people put forth so much effort to those who are not as fortunate, by means of donations and toys and food.

Two days ago I got a very sudden, very severe headache. I knew when it hit me that it was going to be one of the bad ones. I needed an entire Vicodin and 400 mg of ibuprofen to even touch it–usually I only need half of that! Day two required one additional dose, then today I’ve been okay without medicine, though I still get bursts of pain randomly.

Also for a couple days I’ve had the facial grimacing thing happening–where my face tends to droop and pull toward the left. I have very limited use of my left arm for reasons of neurological-based weakness. Yesterday my walk starting to.. well, where my left leg began to drag and I almost had a tip-toe gait, again. I have been feeling better this evening, but the dragging leg is still happening. I’ve had tremor in both arms, but obviously moreso in my left.

I never bothered to see that movement disorder specialist since everything was exaggerated because of the herxing. My neurologist confirmed dystonia, but as far as what kind, I have no idea.  Reading more about dystonia and hypertonia (so much overlap) and its relationship to upper motor neuron lesions, has left me wondering if some of these issues will ever leave, or just be a remnant that appears whenever my body and brain are stressed? A friend of mine has been diagnosed with hypertonia and spasticity, and while she also has a random spot on her MRI, they never thought to make any connection with it in her, either. Then again I don’t know what area of the brain hers is in, nor the size, nor if she has a positive pronator drift. But the coincidence made me research a lot; I love learning.

What I can draw from it in my one day of Googling is,

Lyme disease and/or Bartonella → Upper Moton Neuron Lesion (w/ Positive Pronator Drift) → Spasticity → Hypertonia → Rigidity, and/or Dystonia, and/or Parkinsonism, and/or Dystonic Hypertonia (and probably a ton of other things)

In other words, an infection leading to a brain lesion that leads to various movement disorders. (Everything there can have more than one cause and result, don’t misinterpret that.) I just wonder if it’s permanent? Both my friend and I have experienced that, even when we feel better, we experience progressive neurological deficits the more physically active we are… I simply wonder whether or not that’s going to go away, or if it’s related to the spots on our brains, and thus it.. probably won’t. It always gets worse when oxygen levels are out of balance… So if my friend’s problems are anything like mine then I assume the SPECT scan she’s having will show lots of abnormality, which should serve as a basis of proof for her disability case. It’s ridiculous that someone who can only barely get out of bed on most days and makes emergency room visits every few months, has to prove disability even when all infection tests show positive… :\

I should be better in a couple more days.

a rainbow at night

Important discovery: Intracranial hypotension/hypovolemia.

What is it, time for me to see how many random ailments I can rack up within the shortest time frame?

After research, I’m confident enough to say I’ve figured out this very peculiar headache I’ve gotten the past few days. I think I know now why the headache I got two days ago didn’t respond to meds like they usually do. Because it happened so close to my flare days, and was just as painful as they usually are, I didn’t think much of it. But yesterday, when it persisted, I really, really thought something else was going on.

Yesterday, I felt fabulous. Finally better! However, my head continued to ache when I sat up, and got extremely painful when I stood up. As long as I was lying down it was barely noticeable. It hurt on the top of my head, a sensation I’m not entirely unaccustomed to–I sometimes get this with my occipital neuralgia attacks. But this was different. I tend to say it feels like there’s not enough oxygen/blood getting to my brain, because it’s so obviously a pressure problem… But what I didn’t realize, was that the pressure in your head can be something seperate entirely! These orthostatic headaches usually happen to me when my overall blood pressure is low, and you can literally feel all the blood come rushing away from your head. But as I said, yesterday I was fine, with the exception of my head hurting… I knew there had to be a name and an explanation for this, so last night I set out to find what it was. I couldn’t help myself, being a researcher at heart.

WELL. It turns out, I am most definitely suffering from low intracranial pressure, thus causing a headache because the decreased pressure isn’t enough to keep my brain properly suspended, resulting in it giving in to gravity, if you will, and literally pressing against/into the hole at the bottom of the skull (known as the foramen magnum), where the brain and spinal cord meet. It makes perfect sense as the why it hurts so much, yes?!?

“Headache resulting from the removal of CSF with subsequent decreases in intracranial pressure (ICP) is a well-known phenomenon.  This most commonly occurs after lumbar puncture (LP), but may occur spontaneously or as a result of trauma.  The headache is usually worsened by sitting or standing upright and improves or disappears with lying flat.  Pain is steady, often described as pulling, and occurs most commonly in the vertex [top of the head] or occipital [back of the head near the neck] regions.  Nausea is common and transient 3rd or 6th nerve palsies have been reported.  Nearly all of these headaches will resolve spontaneously over several days.  Bed rest and fluids are recommended but have not been conclusively shown to speed recovery.  In cases occurring after LP that do not resolve with conservative management, autologous blood patching in the epidural space is indicated.”

I guess even the random nausea that I mentioned last post also makes sense, now.

This is the same type of headache I got the day after my first neurologist visit, where I said, “It’d be risky to get a spinal tap because I already get symptoms of the type of headache you get after them, the ones that are supposed to tell you whether or not you need a blood patch to stop a CSF leak. If I get these headaches anyway, how am I supposed to tell whether or not I’d need a patch?!” Not having had any spinal taps, I figured there had to be some other explanation for the headaches…but it turns out you can get decreased intracranial pressure without having had a tap.

Interesting bit of information: Remember last post when I said my eyes haven’t twitched since April?  Well that time in April was the day after my neurologist visit, the last time I had this intracranial headache! I was so relieved to find that out, because it probably means the extreme twitching I got those three days was instead a neurological quirk from the nerve irritation and not a bug flaring, this time! :D (It also explains why I’ve had so much trouble focusing my eyes the past few days–they seem to want to go all over the page, which is yet another symptom of this low intracranial pressure.)

It also, and perhaps most importantly, explains another strange phenomenon I’ve had the past several months: Sometimes when I take my Topamax, it actually GIVES me a headache. I found out last night that.. Topamax can decrease intracranial pressure. :((( I halfway wonder, now, since I started it in March after I got out of the hospital, if this is why I’m having these issues at all! Since I’ve been wanting to quit it for months anyway, I am promptly weaning myself off of it–which, please, I wouldn’t recommend for people who don’t know what they’re doing!–but because of my medication sensitivity, I only ever got up to 25mg. I’ll take half for one week, and then cut it into fourths another week, to be sure. Hopefully my migraines won’t relapse, but even if they do, I’ll have to find another treatment. I still have Imitrex in case I get any of those semi-dangerous retinal migraines.

I’m kind of horrified, but also kind of excited by this. First off, I know what it is now, so I can properly treat it. (Read as: I will lie down instead of being stubborn, before it gets to the severe stage!) The only thing I need to figure out now is…why are they happening? Is it truly the Topamax? Or do I actually have some sort of cerebrospinal fluid leak? That would certainly need to be fixed… Do the infections aggravate it or is it just coincidental timing? I guess it wasn’t really coincidental this time, because it persisted even after the flare, which is what allowed me to notice something wasn’t right. I know I still have bugs to fight, but I’m semi-excited at the possibility of some of my more strange symptoms being potentially caused by something they can actually just go in, find, and FIX. Maybe some of my autonomic symptoms are being aggravated by this? Ha, is it strange to almost hope you have a cerebrospinal fluid leak?

Please note I NEVER recommend Wikipedia for health information, but once in a blue moon, their information is accurate:

“A spontaneous CSF leak, as opposed to traumatically caused CSF leaks, arises idiopathically. A loss of CSF greater than its rate of production leads to a decreased volume inside the skull known as intracranial hypotension (ICH). A CSF leak is most often characterized by a severe and disabling headache and a spectrum of various symptoms which occur as a result of ICH. These symptoms can include: dizziness, nausea, fatigue, a metallic taste in the mouth (indicative of a cranial leak), myoclonus, tinnitus, tingling in the limbs, and facial weakness, amongst others. A CT scan can identify the site of a cerebrospinal fluid leakage. Once identified, the leak can often be repaired by an epidural blood patch, an injection of the patient’s own blood at the site of the leak.

Some patients with CSF leak will develop headaches that begin in the afternoon. This is known as second-half-of-the-day headache. This may be the initial presentation of the CSF leak or appear after treatment, and likely indicates a slow CSF leak.”

The “second-half-of-the-day headache” really matches this so well, because I have woken up with no headaches, but the more I’m awake (i.e, the more I’m upright), the worse it gets. On the other hand, my infection flare headaches usually do the opposite and get better by the evening (and respond to medication–unlike these). And they feel more akin to a brain swelling than a lack-of-oxygen feeling.

I think I mentioned last post that I had one final trip to my good neurologist, and I can’t wait to bring this up incase he wants to order more tests to see if there’s anything that can be done. I’m so glad that I didn’t–for a multitude of reasons–get the spinal tap he wanted me to have back then: Goodness knows the problems that would have caused, if my pressure was already low!

Always learning, always learning.

a rainbow at night

[Edit, January 2012: Bittersweet, but it was apparently just the Topamax! I haven’t had one of these episodes since stopping it.]