Slowly but Surely: The Beginnings of Improvement, and Adding Azithromycin

…I think the pieces are coming together. I had several “episodes” since I last posted, and.. let’s be clear, that by “episodes,” I mean the thing that happens when my face and tongue go numb, my arms (or arm) goes numb, I shake and temporarily cannot swallow, which may or may not be precipitated by an urge to urinate. I’ve had lots of different types of numbness over the past several weeks, so I felt a need to clarify.

I eliminated several other things that had any timing whatsoever to do with these attacks and/or Migraines: Ensure, BOOST High Protein shakes, things with Vinegar, things with nitrates, caffeine, black tea (even decaf), coffee (even decaf), Truvia, Splenda, and Aspartame (which is the devil anyway).

Because anything and everything can give me a Migraine attack these days. I had something marinated in apple cider vinegar and my body had a general meltdown. I had green olives with half a protein shake and had another “episode” almost immediately, so I can’t tell which was the culprit. But, having done all this, I actually haven’t had a Migraine in two days. I can’t believe that’s an accomplishment, but I’d been getting them every day, otherwise. I even left the house yesterday, and didn’t get one! And in the mornings, I don’t have much numbness in my arms and face, but I can’t yet determine if it’s the absence of Truvia or just a well-timed symptom. I’m scared to find out the hard way, right now. The general battle is finding out what cluster of symptoms is the bartonella, what cluster has to do with my Migraines, and how do we prevent them both. One interesting thing though: It happened this morning, and I hadn’t any Truvia, or any.. anything! Which means it can’t be purely the Truvia, despite me having a decrease in overall numbness since ceasing it. (And there’s the kicker. None of this is purely anything, but it seems to be a lot of stuff happening wrong at the right time. Which is another characteristic of my Migraines: They don’t happen until a lot of triggers add up, and then just one more will push it over the edge.) Now, what affects me worse in the mornings? Bartonella. So, which is it? My conundrum should be apparent.


My LLMD put me back on Rifampin as of the 17th since I didn’t have anything crazy happen after a month and a half on it. Then, instead of adding Doxycycline, which is driving me out of my mind with its effects and herxing and messing with my throat/vague nerve, we’re adding the Zithro! I’m pleased to report I can handle all temperatures of food and drink and have no trouble with food texture. :D I’m on just 250mg, but considering this lowest dose still makes me feel like I have the flu every evening, I’m glad we’re starting so small. I’m still on a normal dosage of Rifampin and therefore we’re killing the bartonella at a reliable level, so that’s great news for me. I will still improve at a fairly decent rate, and can expect a change in ability levels within just a few months. I’m also lucky to not have developed any reaction to Rifampin, which can happen when you stop and have to start it again. It’s apparently still working as well, because the bartonella flare I had after I restarted it (which happened to be the next day) was insane. As in, curled up in a fetal position in a dark corner of my room, sobbing hysterically, not knowing what’s going on, or even how I got there, insane. So… We definitely have to kill them bugs. Kill them dead. (This goes in the category of “things I’d never admit did I not know they happened to most people with chronic bartonella.”)


The Topamax is amazing and I’m at the full 25mg right now. My Migraines… Well, I’ve had them a long time. So I can identify when they’re coming on, but lately they have been so complex, it’s ridiculous. Usually, my migraines affect the right side of my face, with numbness and pain and temporary facial unresponsiveness; my speech slurs and I cannot tolerate any sound or light. Bartonella attacks the right side of my face too, though. :\ This recent development where my arm goes numb and my tongue goes numb? It’s anyone guess whether that’s part of a Migraine or part of a bartonella flare or herx. (It’s sometimes accompanied by this “zap” sensation as well, which I’ve never felt as part of any Migraine.) But after searching LymeNet I found out that other people with bartonella are experiencing numb tongue accompanied by numb arms. How strange is that?! One thread even talked about the general numbness that’s been creeping up on me since I started the Rifampin! And on that note, twice after taking Rifampin this time around, I couldn’t feel my legs, and all of my limbs generally have that “fallen alseep” feeling at various parts of the day now. Especially at night, when I wake up and notice my limbs are cold and numb. That’s a bit scary, but as long as the sensation returns, I can deal with it. So! The mystery of the random arm numbness and terrible headaches that often precipitated them, may be solved! My severely increased Migraines may just be an unfortunate consequence of treating bartonella. If this is true, then it makes sense why they gradually got worse throughout treatment.

In general, the “episodes” and my migraines are getting less severe and less frequent. I still have trouble when I eat sometimes, however. (Things that HAVEN’T been happening, barely at all? No dystonia, no air hunger, and no troubles with low oxygen.) I will be sticking to this “Migraine diet” until I feel safe enough to come off of it. The Ensure drinks are once again off-limits, but that’s okay because my appetite is very healthy and I’m not losing weight! I’ve been gradually adding back my supplements and herbs as well, and I’m able to tolerate them again. I’ve actually been walking around more in the past few days than I have.. possibly since January, which is amazing. As long as I don’t overdo it, I think I’m finally at a stable point again. I’m not tired, so I’m having to force myself to rest and not do more than is necessary, which is.. well, it’s annoying. It’s like sitting a healthy person in front of an amusement park with unlimited tickets and telling them they can’t get up. :| But if I’m good now, in the future I shall be able to be active without dire consequences, so I must be patient. God’s given me the best opportunity for having rest, so I need to take advantage of it. On the scale right now I’d say I’m at, 20% physical, 30% cognitive, and still 7% symptom severity. The symptom severity is definitely the worst part of this right now. They are still terrible and flare so easily, but I do have a lot more cognitive functioning so I can at least use my brain more. :)


I saw my primary physician. I had to update her on everything that’s happened during the past three months. She says not to be too worried with the brain lesion unless it changes…which is good advice, right? It’s there, it’s done; it’s if it changes that will be cause for concern. She also wants me to see another cardiologist in case something else is contributing to the mitral regurgitation. Which is, again, sound advice. Just because I have things that affect my heart doesn’t mean nothing else can be going on. So for peace of mind, my mother is taking me to one Tuesday to get a bunch of tests run, just to make sure there’s nothing there we can potentially fix.

I’ve had the same doctor for ten years. She’s seen me from the moment I started going downhill, and through the M.E., and through the remission, and then through the relapse and these infections… So her advice means more to me than any other doctor. She briefly mentioned to me something that.. sort of startled me, in a strange way. She said something to the effect of:

“I know you’re at a race against time to treat these infections, but you know, even in cancer patients, if the chemo is going to end up killing them… Sometimes it’s wise to just let things take their course, if the treatment is going to be just as bad or worse than the disease, so I really hope you can get on something that will work, soon, because it pains me to see you continuously going downhill like this.”

Hearing her say that just sort of drove everything home for me, I think. These past three weeks–goodness, nearly a month!–since ‘all of that’ happened, have just been one big blur and me taking it one hour to the next, to not upset the delicate balance that my body is struggling to maintain. Consciously I do realize what I’m up against, but there’s something about talking to your doctor for twenty minutes and having her sum it up all into that

It was never a surprise that things might get this bad. Even in my old journal from the past year, I found where I’d written things like this:

December 5, 2009
“Two weeks ago I couldn’t make it down my hallway. Tonight I shuffled around in the yard, and made a snowman. No, I wasn’t exactly running around, but I was STANDING UP and doing so for more than two minutes…
I’m making this post now because if what I feel right now is any comparison, tomorrow is really going to suck. No one wanted to come out in the yard and make a snowman with me. They walked outside for a minute then watched from the door as I shuffled about, but… Hell, I have no idea what condition I’ll be in next time it snows, especially if that’s a year from now. I could be better, yes, I hope, but I could very well be bedbound yet again, or worse; anyone faces these risks for some reason or another, but that knowledge is always in my mind because of.. you know.”

I guess it’s sort of like when everything tumbled in July of 2010, and I ended up living with family again, barely having a spare moment to think because things had reached a new level of bad and it all happened so fast… It just happened again, I guess. And now I’m realizing it. (Granted, I’m back on my olive leaf extract, so I’m much more “aware” of everything again!) But somehow–and the media doesn’t help–you just imagine that with enough determination you won’t “let” yourself get this sick. Ahaha. Like it’s a choice…

a rainbow at night

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