I’m pushing it by typing this, but I just can’t help it. I will rest extra tomorrow to make up for it.
I’m excited. There are flowers in my room and I’ve realized they make me very, very happy. Today while lying in bed, I looked around and just admired how incredibly gorgeous my surrounding are, and allowed myself to feel gratitude for it. This is what I wanted, after all–a place to feel peaceful. The weather was wonderful and I looked out of my open window.
That headache I got the other day was a migraine. It kept going away and coming back, so it had me confused, and it didn’t respond to Treximet, which had me more confused. But today, not wanting to take another Treximet because of how awful they make me feel–numbness and dizziness and generally an awakening of all those weird symptoms I get during my autonomic neuropathy “episodes”–I chose to take a risk. I’ve been able to handle some caffeine for a while now, and recently I’ve pushed the boundaries further with no ill results. So I took an Excedrin Migraine, the one thing I’ve used to control my migraines for the past thirteen years. Some may or may not remember the insane reaction I developed to caffeine, but today, nothing happened. Oh, except my migraine going away, that is! I didn’t get any of those dreaded symptoms! I feel I am finally free and healed of whatever occured in my body/brain that made caffeine such a trigger for the past nine months. And I am elated!
Caffeine is a drug, and one that helps me do far more than just stay awake. I can stay awake on my own. But now I can use it to stand up in the mornings, earlier than the two hours I usually need beforehand to avoid passing out. Now I can use it to help me digest food if I begin experiencing post-prandial hypotension. Now I can use it to get rid of my migraines. Now I can use it to help my brain in general! I mean, look at me, typing these entries!
But I am not going to start taking it everyday. Nor am I going to allow it to mask my symptoms so that I overexert, which is dangerous. I’ll probably mess up a few times–not being used to differentiating, after not using it for so long–but that’s all right. I will figure it out!
With that in mind, I shall close this entry, but I wanted to post about this wonderful news. :)
♥ a rainbow at night
(P.S. – Oh! And I have a surprise for December!)